It’s been a drabby and long, wet, winter. Today the sun has graced us with its presence here in small town. I celebrated by sleeping in (gross – but I worked a 19 hour shift the day before) and took the pups to the dog park. I walked by my chicken coop that I am itching to fill with life (as in chickens) and took mental note of the work I will do on it this Monday.
Chickens are on order for April – can’t wait! But in the meantime I will be occupying myself with getting the garden going and learning more about that. In addition to keeping up with my goals.
The light I am referring to is not only the sunshine: I am talking about breaking through the long and arduous wall that has been keeping me from getting financially stable since this move in November. Moving is hard and a huge financial burden, let alone moving to an island and establishing a job and working all that out. I am days away from being able to let out a huge sigh of relief and hopefully sleep restfully (after celebrating). The thing about money and the stress that accompanies it, is that it is hard to get it out of your mind, especially if you are falling behind. It can be terrifying: how will I make it until ____ date? how will I pay off ____ bill? what about gas for my car? There is always something that comes up it seems.
When we moved, I was in school full-time (correspondence) and had a loan, a small savings and the attitude that I can get a job anywhere. Which is true (to an extent) but what I did not take into account is the possibility that it could take a while to get going. I am grateful and realize how lucky I am, but MAN it’s been a hard few months. So my strategy to get through this all was to keep the best attitude about it as I could. Inevitably it got to me and there were times where I would stress and stress until I made myself sick. What a mess.
But I did keep telling myself that “it has to get better, and it will.”
It did. And I am quite certain it will continue to get better. So the sunshine today has really assisted in not only boosting my vitamin D intake, but also my proverbial spirits. The sun is shining and the weather is sweet my friends. Take some time to appreciate what you have, what you’ve worked for and share it with someone special.
It’s been an intense week…make that couple of months.
Uprooting your life and moving to a new place is awesome and scary. I knew it would be hard, so I made myself some personal goals to achieve that were directly related to the move alone (since I have other goals that are just general “get these done goals”).
So far I am on par for meeting the goals:
get to know the area without needing a gps
get a job
make some friends
- stay on top of housework (in progress)
- chill the f*ck out (in progress)
The biggest challenge has been finances which we all experience at some point. Moving is expensive, being a full-time student is expensive and the in between jobs time is nice but it quickly chews through your savings. I have been trying to keep my chin up but $ is one of those things that can get the best of you. So, I buy lottery tickets once in a while with my lost-in-the-backseat-of-my-truck-money. I like to dream about the things I’ll do with my lottery winnings. So far, my career in the lottery ticket world has been pretty weak. However, a couple of weeks ago, I picked up a ticket and tucked it away in my wallet and completely forgot about it. Last week while doing some grocery shopping I noticed the lottery booth and was reminded to check my ticket. It was my personal best for lottery winnings: $20 AND a free play for tomorrow’s $50 million jackpot. Things are looking up indeed……
Tuesday was paper day but it was also my first training day at my new job. I had a 4 hour gap in between shifts to rush home and do my route – which I was dreading since I woke up long before the sun came up. Boy was I ever glad I did my route because there were Christmas cards galore left out for me at 12 of my houses. It wasn’t so much the tips that made my day, but that people had made the effort to call the newspaper to ask my name and personalized my cards. I felt like such a sappy chick, but I was almost moved to tears. I must be getting old or something…. I made $20 in tips which was a definite bonus. Tomorrow is another paper day, so who knows, things may continue to look up!
The icing on my cake this week, was getting a call back for a second interview for the job I really want. Really really want. I went for it yesterday and I don’t want to jinx it, but I have a really good feeling about this one. If I get this one, it will be my numero uno job and I will stop complaining about how hard life can be, because I will have achieved one of my ultimate goals and be so grateful.
I’m a firm believer that things can be really hard for a while, but eventually things move up and get better. This is what I feel is happening, so although I am exhausted and stressed, I see the good on its way.
It’s time to get back to school because I have a really cool prof that assigned a project due December 25th – way to go. Plus my parents arrive later today for a few days so I will likely be nonresponsive for a while. Good luck with holidays everyone, I know I’ll need it.